Prologue

Sir, My name is Junaid Khan. My father’s name is Ali Asgar Khan. I am 23 years and 11 months old. I will be 24 in the next month, if you do not transfer me to the other jail tonight as you did with that stone-faced, blindfolded boy, whom I first saw in the police van, handcuffed, afraid and strained as though he was puzzled by everything happening to him. Look, I am not half-literate like him. I understand what it means when they transfer someone from one jail to other during the darker hours of the day, blindfolded and handcuffed.

Ah! I forget. You have no other choice; you are simply following your orders.

You know, I like this cell. It reminds me of my childhood days, these damped walls, the pale lightened bulb hanging from the ceiling, and that rustic window. This foul odor coming from these damped walls might make you nauseous, but I perceive tranquility and calmness. It somehow soothes me. I think I am accustomed to it. I am familiar to this foulness. You see that spot at the front wall, just below the window, from where plaster has withered off? Didn't you say it looks like a high heel shoe to you? But it reminds me of the distorted Australian map that you have seen in your geography text book and below that you might have read – 'Earth’s map in early nineteenth century'. See that joint from where long heel starts; there lies Sydney, the home of Sydney Opera House and Sydney Harbor Bridge. I remember the moment when I first saw these structures in my geography text book; I was mesmerized and lost somewhere in that black and white picture. Other boys were reading loudly the economy of Australia, while I was watching it amazingly with my eyes wide opened. I was assured I could continue dreaming of it till those loud economies were coming into my ears as well as into the ears of my teacher, who was snoring in his chair with his legs stretched over the table, and with a long dark greenish bamboo rule in his lap. He used to repeat these words while applying it on the boys shivering hands – Dukh-Haran hai ye, Dukh-Haran hai ye….' (It is a pain reliever, It is a pain reliever.). Believe me Sir, Those words were quite intriguing for a boy of age somewhat 11 and whenever I got those doses, I was confused how it could have been a pain reliever.

See in that black spot molded due to dampness in the upper corner of that wall. Don’t you think, it looks like the west coast of United States of America? It was covered with cobwebs till yesterday night. A mosquito got trapped. For some time, he tried with his full strength to get rid of those sticking traps, and then he stopped, after some time he swayed his undulating body furiously and again stopped. He kept his futile efforts alive till he could. After a long time, all that was to be seen were the small movements of his legs, coming intermittently, just to signal the remains of life left inside him. The whole scene was being observed by me quietly and of course, by that red headed spider, very close to his trap, standstill, and silent. I was feeling nauseous, so I destroyed his home and crushed that bastard into dust under my slippers. Leave that Sir, you see where those black spots ends, here is San Francisco, the home of the famous Golden Gate suspension Bridge over the San Francisco Bay. I used to dream of, having a white ferry and a voyage from Sydney Opera house to Golden Gate in those days when I strived to register my existence in this world. Now, I am a complete unknown and it is not that they don’t know my identity; it is something they refuse to see me. I realized the futility involved in chasing those dreams when I became a complete unknown piece of morsel.

I know you have left no stone unturned to extract my identity. I shall tell you my true identity when I am assured enough that it is no longer important for you. Nobody is going to dig my true identity. They are the same blindfolded people; they see what you show them.